(((((((((Joelbear))))))))))
If you feel that is where you will be happy........Go back. You have been on this board long enough to have read it all, and with almost 3000 posts you have had your say. So if you feel the need to be a JW go with our blessings..........You are not doing it blind. They have something you need from the depths of your soul. It is your "Truth" go get it and give it your 100%.
There are lifelong convicts that get out of prison and after a short time "OUT" must commit a crime so they can go back, because they are lost out in the real world. They are out of place. Away from their "normal and familiar" prison is their "HOME". It very well may be yours. (One mans trash is another mans treasure)
There are couples that seperate from a miserable marriage. Not able to adjust to life alone they go back because it is safe and familiar. They have a nagging question. Maybe they just didn't do enough, or try hard enough. You seem to have a nagging question.............Go get it answered.
Find your Peace, where ever it may be. Be Happy were ever you find it.